I say it all the time, "I'm back!" Sure I'm coming back to blog again... but it has been SOOO long.  Well, here's the super fast update:
1. I almost didn't get back in to Alger MS.
2. I did get back in to Alger MS.
3. I taught summer school at Alger.
4. I left the family I love to teach closer to home.
5. I teach high schoolers.
6. I'm still working on an Elementary endorsement.
7. I want to get back in to art and design.

So... because of number 7, I'm opening up my blog again to try and post some photoshop/picnik stuff here.

Here we go!

I just noticed that I had a follower on my dashboard (yeah, it's been a while since I've posted...) I was like, "Why can't I see my follower?"  I think it's me!  How ridiculous am I?

Anyways, I'm feeling slightly out of control.  All my life I've wanted and needed to have control in my life.  I don't feel like I have any control anymore.  This job has taken a lot out of me.  I've lost a lot of my life, and I have mentally aged a good 10 years.  I'm exhausted.

Is this burn out or the position I'm in?  I think it could be both...

What to do?  I'm going to have to figure something new out.  I'm just falling apart physically and mentally.

Soon I hope to get back to my ONIB books...  Soon.

So... it's been a LOOONG time.  My bad.  I've been busy and all with the teaching position.  But here's the thing: my life has ONLY been about my job since September.  It has really taken a toll.  The school has given me a co-teacher, and I have had my tight little grip around my territory!  The poor new teacher not only has to deal with transitioning students, but Jessi is an additional battle.

Well... I surrender to this battle in order to gain in the event of new life.  Me and Jesus?  We've been struggling for a few years now.  Camp Geneva some how made me a little bitter toward Christianity.  I never wanted to be the girl who left people out or was intolerant.  I didn't even want to be associated with them.

Times change.  I need a Savior, and it has to be Jesus.  There is so much of me that I have forgotten and ignored since starting this job.  I hardly remember who my friends are and what it's like to just hang out.  I don't know what it is to sleep at night and not dream about school.

I've set some new "resolutions" for myself.  They aren't really for the year, so I don't want to refer to them as resolutions.  These goals are the start of a new chapter in my life.  I'll try and come up with a name for this new journey later... but excuse me while I figure out how to be at a meeting until 4 and at my school by 3:30...